Response: This is difficult for me since I'm not very introspective about picking and choosing color. I don't even know how I'd go about it.
Do I define my personality? If so, should I define it as it is or as I'd want it to be. I don't like how much this question agitates me and I've always preferred not having a particular color for that very reason.
When asked I usually answer gray and it's varying shades since it stands quietly on its own and doesn't require or demand attention. Thats what I like about it. That's what I'd like about me. But I like attention. I have moments of vanity. Or to be more accurate, the rare moments without it.
Do I define this based on colors I like? Same dilemma as above. I usually go for strong, bright colors that are straightforward and easy to use. Red, Yellow, Green, Blue. I like warmer colors in my drawings and art because of their intensity and how they grab attention. I've always loved the combination of Red, Orange and Yellow melding into each other.
I can't say why I'm drawn to it. But I am.
So now the problem is to narrow down what aspect of me I want to represent.
What aspect of myself can I represent in color? Currently, My life is colored by a conflict between my existing understanding of the world based on my sphere of control and a profoundly intense emotion I didn't think existed. I've experienced a string of migraine attacks as a consequence of this existential dread and I'm torn apart on two ends. Do I do what I feel is right, or do I now reimagine the mental model of the world I've built.
Its funny in a way. I'm feeling blue but the color behind that is red.
Prior to this I'd have 5 boxes from black to white with three shades of gray in between. That's how I see the world. That's how I understand it. In terms of extremes and where within that I'd find myself, often picking the lighter ends. Often picking the whiter ends. The absoutes aren't as helpful but they used to exist, in my head. They helped inform the messy middles and I understood things better by seeing them against extremes. I'd see things as based on absolute rights and absolute wrons and find how much towards right I could be.
It's not like that anymore. I'm forced to confront the idea, that as far as feeligns are concerned, right and wrong don't make as much sense. Had I not been going through this my palette would've been a gradient of grays from black to white and three shades in between. But I don't see absolute white anymore. I don't see absolute black. There's 4 shades of gray. And then there's this one color that that's pulling everything in (or likely apart)
This, I can represent visually. I chose the color Blood Red which is the color for love. I had to experiment with the Hue, Saturation and Brightness until it felt right. I've discovered this color by feel.
It is also the color I use to track my migraines. For me it represents intensity of experience and feelings I didn't imagine existing. Or if they exited, I considered them beyond my realm of understanding. I have to confront that this exists and I am
Then I colored the other boxes using a complimentary color. It'll help when converting them into shades of gray since the residual green would act as an opposing force instead of entirely neutral.
Then I set the saturation to
4% and set the black values evenly divided between 15 and 90.
I came up with the following color palette.